Hello Everyone!
Sit down, grab a cup of tea and maybe a digestive biscuit or two. No thank you, I shouldn't, your too kind but I gotta get the perfect body for the summer holidays, which by the way start in 1 month exactly! I'm so freaking excited!!
On the topic of summer, that's part of what I wanted to talk to you about! Today when I was at school (I didn't have any exams today, but I wanted to go in to speak to a couple of my teachers about some of the exams that are coming up because I was a tad confused on some of the topics that will come up in the exams) I was talking to some of girls who had exams that day or had come in for the same reason as I did, and apparently its weird to go on holiday with friends!
Ive got a couple holidays planned for the holidays, mainly to celebrate the end of compulsory education (when you finish year eleven in the UK, age 16, you have the option to not continue with your education, only with parents consent that is though.) but to spend more time with them because, to be honest, the majority of my really close friends are all from my old school where I was until the age of thirteen and then at the end of that we all went our separate ways to different schools all around the country! But back on topic, I'm going on a girly holiday with my friends and my best friends mum who really is actually the coolest mother you could ever find on the planet! She'll take us all for manicures and massages when we all get together in the holidays and its all fabulous and we all never want to leave! Again, back on topic.. I think I should warn you guys that I get sidetracked quite a lot, so sorry if that annoys you guys, I'll try to stop in the future!! Anyways, the girls who I spent the day with and I started talking about summer and what we had planned, all of our summers were crammed with festivals and things, but I and the other girls had all noticed that I had multiple holidays coming up.. I thought it was normal for people to go on holidays with friends but maybe that's because my older sister does it quite alot and thats what I've grown up to see as normal. Obviously not. Comment and tell me your plans for the summer though, Id love to see what you guys are doing as well.. or if your already on your summer holidays (like those in America because they break up ridiculously early, but then again they do go back like mid august dont they?)
Second topic I like to talk to you about is Demi Lovatos new album; it came out yesterday in the UK and I like it. alot. Actually maybe like is an understatement, just a little, okay alot obsessed.My favourite song is either Nightingale or Warrior, she just has such a huge voice, its so powerful and shes so beautiful, shes been through alot and I think the difficulties shes been through in her life have a huge impact on her songs... She just puts so much emotion into those songs and they have so much meaning to her, and to me actually, but not for the same reasons. Warrior reminds me alot of my sister, but Ill get on to that in a moment. And Nightingale has an means an awful lot to me and I'll get onto that on when I talk about meaning of Warrior for me!
Warrior reminds me alot of my sister, like Demi she went through an awful lot as a child, and then when she got to the age of 13, she had stopped eating and then soon enough she was diagnosed with Anorexia, I think it was one of the scariest things in my life as me and my sister are very close,she got so thin and the doctors didnt think she would make to the age of 15. She was so strong and went into treatment for three months and she says that it was one of the scariest things in her life and when she came out she was in recovery and she stayed so strong, I dont know how she did it and so to me she is one of my inspirations and my very own warrior, you guys should listen to it.
Nightingale also has alot of meaning to me, it reminds me alot of my grandmother who unfortunately was diagnosed with an grade 4 gliomic cancer (thats cancer that develops in the spine and makes its way up to the brain) three years ago and then passed away two years ago this summer holidays.
My grandmother and I were very close, my parents and I lived very close to my grandparents, but have moved further away since, and I would spend constant weekends with her whenever I could. But when she had her seizure we knew things weren't right and my grandparents stayed in the house that we were living in at the time and my mother looked after her, aswell as looking after my sister who was slowly building her weight up (my mother is one of the strongest people I know, and I know, I've said alot of people are so strong in this, but people dont realise all the things some people are put though) and I would come home everyday and she would still be smiling despite all the pain she was being put through with all the chemo and radio therapy, we'd chat about my day and then she'll tell me about all the tennis and golf shed watched that day, by this point she couldnt walk and was in a wheelchair and so she was stuck watching television in the sitting room all day, then I would go do my homework in my office for the evening before supper and then wed all sit down and have supper that mummy had prepared. The doctors told us that she was progressing well and then when I came back home from school a couple weeks later and went into the sitting room for my daily chat with Grandma, she wasnt there and neither was my grandfather. Mummy told me she was taken to hospital earlier that day because something was going wrong with the medications and that she died on the way in the ambulance and my grandfather was in the hospital sorting out things that happen when people die. I dont remember much of the evening, just that I lay on the sofa for the rest of the night crying and cuddling the blanket she had with her all time. This relates to the song Nightingale alot because Demi wrote it about a friend she had when she was younger who sadly passed away when they were both 13. RIP Grandma and Demis friend. You can listen to the song here. Its such an emotional song and Im sure you guys will love it!!!
The third and final topic I want to talk to you guys about today is the future My sisters finished school and is now in university at the moment and shes loving it, maybe thats because shes never got anything lower than an A* in any public exams and can just be Einstein at any subject you could think of, or because shes in her first year and has spent about 45% of it drunk or hungover. Traditional British student me thinks, but to be quite honest, I dont know if I want to go!
When I was younger, my grandmother told me I was clever and talented enough to do whatever I wanted to do and for the majority of my life I believed that. I used to want to be a singer, and when i was younger I knew I was good, but then when entering a new school full of more people that had better voices than I did, who were more clever than I am made me begin to doubt myself, bullying for two whole years of my life didnt help with that, I actually felt like crap those two whole years. Now Im with a really good group of friends, Cupcake being one of my closest friends at school along with someone else were going to call Anne (thats her middlename) and another girl were going to called Darcy the dancer (or just Darcy) and Im really going to miss of them when I dont come into school to see their faces everyday, these girls have really boosted my confidence and tell me almost everyday that Im fabulous, I tell them that too, were such self esteem booster type of people!
What are your guys' plans for the future. Are you to be inheriting a castle, or do you hope to be an oscar winning actress! Either way I hope it goes well for all you.
XOXO
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